Hmmmm.....yup...no....i dunno.

They say you can't really say you understand something until you can explain it to others. For the most part, for things that need explaining - its true. In fact its quite satisfying once you realize you get it and satisfying to explain to yourself or others what is going on. On the flip side, when you can't its truly frustrating. Throw the unknowns of the irrational human factor into the system of logic and you'll get an what else, an unknown, potentially confusing and frustrated result. The odds often are stacked against us silly humans.

I'm sure many people go through it all the time, and its easy to say to someone else "reason it out", or "how do you feel about it?", but rarely can issues that defy one's own internalization and comprehension be so easily resolved. Its part of the human condition I suppose. If you don't know what about something is eating at you, or even more simply if it even is, than how do you fix it, if "it" is even needs fixing or not.

So yeah, tonight is one of those nights. Can't quite figure things out. Its OK though, thinking and feeling at length is a luxury I tell myself, even if it can be frustrating. :-P