All the words....

While I'm the first to admit that I'm not exactly the most eloquent person out there(hell...check this blog out!), I like to think I have a decent grasp of language but there are those times when its I find it impossible to articulate things even with all the words of the language at my disposal.

Its usually those times I might go and listen to music that has the effect on me of evoking whatever it is I'm thinking or feeling so that I can spend more time considering it. It's really at this point usually, that I realize its not really the articulation I'm having a problem with but usually just understanding what it is I'm experiencing. Its frustrating because you know exactly how it feels so you feeel like you might understand it, but you go ahead and try to think about it - to put it into more complex thoughts so you can work with it, put it into context etc and it feels like you're spinning your wheels.

I don't know if this happens to other people, but I think its got to be one of the most bothersome things about the human condition. Sometimes, it almost makes one wonder how humans thought about things before there was language - which obviously they did and which we obviously still do. Its just so intertangled with our thought process that it really does effect the way we all think. The brain is wired in certain ways and without doing the research I'm betting language skills are closely tied to reasoning and abilit to comprehend new things. However, we can think about abstract concepts and ideas free from the shackles of language - take math for example. It is what it is what it is no matter how you think about it. There's no need to go ahead and put words to it to explain the meaning. Anyway, I guess it comes down to this...language and all the words out merely label, describe, and communicate ideas, concepts, and feelings...all things that can exist on their own. How frustrating it is when one can't do that. How rewarding it is though when we go try to describe something (whether to ourselves or to others) and in doing so truly discover what we were really thinking and feeling.